there has been a clear void clouding my mind, as fate spins her tapestry with my life falling apart around me.  I fade away to an endless addiction to  a videogame.  Parting with dues for my future to help my family in need, i live lonely with nothing to do or few to relax with.  my work ethics leave no time for normal human interaction, leaving me wandering hopelessly around another grand adventure in a non-existing world.  headaches from some unwanted rumors, i despise rumors with a fiery passion.  The source i track to extinguish the spark, but awkward silence is quite challenging to pierce.  With recent explosions of thoughts and emotions, confusion swirled its ugly face creating more awkward moments.  close friends moving farther apart when truth no longer blinded. all these is so much to fill the void. Yet i still know not what i want or what to move forward too, words elude me during the day. nightly dream have never returned, i truly miss them.  To feel worthless is so heavy, however i have little motivation to make myself worth full.  making it pointless to complain, however still a burden.  mortality is still within me, however i know not why i not seek to live it to the fullest.